...as in this is it

to bubi: sana naman this year, i'll be flake-free. as in events ha, not dandruff. :P

no more time to waste. the world is getting faster and faster and faster, and if i slow down now, i'll get left behind. for real.

(and so begins the sequence of emo prose)

it's nice to have an uppity mood, even when everything should be dragging me down.

 i have so much shit to do, it's not funny. i have to make a psych COMMERCIAL (wtf. as if it's going to increase my learning curve), do a qualitative research on doctor-nurse ofws, learn how to jump rope like a professional (why the hell did i pick running for pe), attend 2 boringgg lectures on why the world is flat, clean up after the mess that ads has made, and (here's my favorite) act like a biblical scholar and write an extensive paper on the passion and death of Jesus Christ.

 but i'm happy.

 i've spent more time with my friends in the past 2 weeks than i did over the past year, i've reaffirmed my capacity to reel in cute boys, and i've severed most of my connections with an unhealthy-for-me friendship. i'm happy.

hoorah. :D 

so this is what it feels like to be a loser.

not like i was cool or anything to begin with.

it's just that to be asked to step out of a class that you're merely sitting in is pretty damn loser-y. of course it just so happened to be the my ex-boyfriend's class too. ghad. life isn't fair.

on a better note, the ADS varsity isn't all that bad. they're actually pretty interesting and fun outside of debate. i just can't grasp the pleasure they get form mocking other people. have a heart sometimes sheesh.

math long test tomorrow.

must ace must ace must ace.

no amount of studying can prepare me for the wrath of cabral. why|||||||||||||?? 

gotta go. math tutorial. whee

its hard to be a teenager.

it really is. all of you should sympathize with that one sentiment.

all the emotions... the angst, frustration, confusion, love, hate, passion. everything.

its tough.

that's all.

going through a really reallt rough patch.

hoping for te best, but expecting the worst.

i hope it doesn't have to end.